I've been thinking a lot over the last week about trying to be a better me, or maybe more accurately the best me I can be.
It's involved a lot of soul searching, some uncomfortable conversations with myself about some things I do and ways I act that don't get me what I want and some admissions (again to myself) that I need to change some things, or else things won't change.
It's led to some more thought about whether you should change who you are, or just be comfortable with it, but when anxiety and depression has had an impact on your life and altered you, albeit probably temporarily then why wouldn't you want to change?
If I got really (more) overweight and (more) unfit I would want to change.
If my back started aching loads because my 'core' - whatever that is - wasn't strong I'd do something about it.
If my teeth went really sensitive I'd buy some special toothpaste.
So if your mind is preventing you doing what you want, or hurting you then you need to do something about it, if you want to of course.
Unfortunately the motivation to change and take that first step does not create itself, it doesn't suddenly rain motivation. It's more likely to rain men, but that's not really relevant,
So be the change you want to be.
If you want to change, then change. Get help from where you need it. Make a plan. Take the first step. Start walking towards the life you want.
Be the best you that you can be.
I've started exercising every day, I've lost weight, I feel better, more confident, braver, stronger, I've bought some more clothes (including a top I was told looks far too young for me today but I don't care - you can judge for yourself).
Mr Paul Wyse