When I catastrophise it makes me ignore any good I have done, any progress I have made and just focus on the negatives. Focus really hard and really clearly on what didn't go right, what I could have done better and what wasn't perfect.
This is the power the mind has. Today was actually, logically and really a good day but my mind has decided otherwise and what my mind decides then my emotions, actions and body dutifully follow.
Hence I just sat in a meeting room at work and had a bit of a cry.
I obviously dried my eyes before I came out of the room, because there's still a stigma, there's still shame, there's still fear.
I don't really have a positive message to end on this one, i've recognised i'm catastrophising so I just need to get past it.
Mr Paul Wyse