Well that’s not entirely true but I hope you’re sitting down because I’m going to write a happier blog!
This week I got a promotion.
This is the first time in 13 years I have been successful at interview. I’ve met the bar at most but someone else always clears it by a bit more. So this is pretty momentous.
And it’s momentous for a number of reasons.
First, I really need the validation of this for my own self worth. Sad maybe, but true.
Second, I’ll be good at it so it’s nice to be recognised.
Third, I didn’t over-prepare and try and be perfect like I usually do. I tried to be myself and show my strengths and the real me. In fact I had very little time to prep.
Last, this feels like a victory for openness, truth and being who you are.
By this I mean that I am delighted my mental health challenges have not got in the way of me getting this opportunity. That it doesn’t define me. That whilst I can be anxious and down that’s not the whole picture. That I have real worth and value.
I’ve got many congratulations messages from colleagues that have really touched me. They still believed in me. I think my anxiety had stopped me believing in myself.
So don’t let yours stop you believing. If you need others to help you believe as you build yourself up and get rid of that negative gremlin then ask. If they’re decent people they won’t mind.
Mr Paul Wyse