Back to the doctors again for me later this week, I've seen an improvement I think, just a general 10% feeling of betterness across the board. I can tell that the pills are doing something because I have started being hilariously funny again at work, something which my colleagues might not agree I am but when I'm down I don't even try to be, I just retreat internally.
I'm not suggesting that I can even see the peaks yet, but the river of treacle isn't feeling so hard to swim through at the moment so that must be progress.
I suppose in that way the pills are a bit like a life jacket or floatation device, but they're definitely not armbands ok....
I have been feeling a few times like the armbands, I mean lifejacket, feel like they are deflating and I'm sinking a bit. Friday last week was like that, and I felt majorly anxious and struggling to see many positives.
In good news I've been progressing getting some help from a group called Talking Space. I've answered a load of questions with a nice lady over the phone, she's told me my scores (Anxiety - severe, Mood - moderate to severe) and I'm now being considered / assessed further to see if I can get on a course to learn some CBT techniques to help. I hope I do, it sounds good and everyone I have spoken to about practicing CBT has said it's great.
I know that anxiety is hard for other people to understand. This video is ace at explaining it if you've never experienced it.
I would watch it again but I need to check my phone a few more times now, which I wrote about here if you missed it wysethoughts.weebly.com/home/walls
Mr Paul Wyse