I feel rubbish today. I forgot to take my tablets on Saturday so it may be because of that, but I'm not sure it is.
My brain feels like it is all jumbled up, I'm finding it hard to focus on any one thing and have that general jittery feeling that creeps up in times of stress.
I have a busy week (or busier than normal because it's always busy) and I think I am worried about letting people down. That's a potential situation, not a current one, but it feels real.
Tomorrow I have a training exercise. I've missed most of the others because I'm always in other meetings so I'm stressing that I'm going to make a prat of myself and not know what I am supposed to do. Maybe that is the point of training but it still makes me really uncomfortable.
On Thursday I'm presenting at a conference. Presenting is ok although I'll probably speak too quickly, but the uncertainty of the questions and once again fear of making a prat of myself is worrying.
So, how do I stop (the fear) of letting people down. I don't know, I just don't know.......
Mr Paul Wyse